Spirit speaks

By Diana Neff | Published: October 23, 2010

During distance sessions, I use the method called EFT.  That is Emotional Freedom Technique.  (I hold a certificate as a practitioner.)  It is a tapping method and I tap on my own acupressure points as I intend the session for you.  While this is a good means of connecting with you, it also opens the door for messages from God to come through and I write them down.  I tap with one hand, write with the other, and enjoy the time.  Writing in Spirit is an excellent way to commune with the Universe and to allow your inner (Higher) self to communicate more fully with the physical you.

The following are two recent messages from the EFT portion of Long Distance Healing Energy Sessions.  They were meant to be very personal for the clients I was working with, but I chose them because, in my opinion, they are messages we can all benefit from.

“I deeply and profoundly love and accept myself.  (I repeated this phrase until our connection was strong and the session moved along.)  I am grateful for all that my life is.  I am grateful for each breath of fresh air, for each swallow of clean water, for each beat of my heart, and for each step I take.  I am grateful to be filled with God’s love, peace, joy, hope, happiness, energy, health and healing.  These gifts fill me to overflowing.  I am happy to share them and I’m grateful for the people who receive them from me.  I am grateful and show this by returning love to the universe.  I watch as each ripple of love leaves my body, growing larger and larger until they become one with the universe in it’s infinity.  I deeply and profoundly love and accept myself and understand that, by concentrating on fullness, sharing, and gratitude, I turn myself into a magnet for all good things.”

“I deeply and profoundly love and accept myself.  I allow myself to be open to the light and positive energy of the universe.  I am capable of using my intuition and I am not afraid.  I can feel the energy and can tell when it is positive and true.  I am made in the image of God and create my life, past, present, and future.  I am free and unburdened.  I share easily with others and feel the positive connection created by doing so.  I lend love and stability to the common consciousness we all share.  I know I am part of the whole.  I enjoy this feeling, this knowledge, and wrap it carefully, storing it in my heart.  Every beat of my heart reminds me of my worth and abilities.  I deeply and profoundly love and accept myself.”

Please let me know if I can help or assist you in your spiritual walk.  Long Distance sessions are just as intimate, personal, and fulfilling as in-person sessions.

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A Yin for Yarn or Zen and the Art of Knitting

By Diana Neff | Published: October 14, 2010

So, here we go on the subject of what we can learn from knitting and how to apply it to life’s decision making.

I have a friend who asks me to work with her as the occasion arises.  She has been in the process of making a decision regarding a class (one of her final needed to graduate with a Master’s degree).  Should she take the easy one to get a good grade, or take the more difficult one because she likes the subject, but risk getting a lesser grade.  I am pasting in the transcript I sent to her after her session. (This is a good example of what comes from a session with me.)

The text in blue is directly quoted from DreamMoods.com

As I cleared and connected yesterday, I was surrounded by the colors purple and black and found myself at your Brow Chakra.  While meditating on what message these were bringing, I realized the image had changed to two strands of yarn, one green and one black.  I began writing about the fact that I have been knitting lately and this may have a message for life. Just as in knitting (especially from patterns), there are always choices to be made, but rules that need to be followed for the outcome to be something with meaning to it.  The black and purple colors were a feeling, surrounding me.  If you blend the two, the color will become like the night sky.  Then the yarn strands came into the picture, making it obvious that the blending process isn’t the same.  You can twine two together, but their colors will never blend.  They may go well together, compliment each other, either in monochromatic or opposite ways, but they will never become one color.

This is kind of like the choice you are making regarding your class.  Will the choice make a true blending and become part of the whole, or will it stand out, bringing attention to itself, and perhaps make the end result have less meaning?  Just as well in the opposite way…Standing out and lending a beauty that would not be there otherwise.

Green symbolizes new life.

Green signifies a positive change, good health, growth, fertility, healing, hope, vigor, vitality, peace, and serenity. The appearance of the color may also be a way of telling you to “go ahead”.

Black symbolizes the unknown, the unconscious, danger, mystery, darkness, death, mourning, rejection, hate or malice. The color invites you to delve deeper in your unconscious in order to gain a better understanding of yourself. It also signifies a lack of love and lack of support. More positively, black represents potential and possibilities. It is like a clean or blank slate.

The opposites are very pronounced here, aren’t they?

I opened your Crown and found myself looking at a pure white, knitted (again) bag.  Knitting has meaning for me at the moment and I can see that, in a huge way, it represents how we approach life.  The bag was empty, but full of potential and the need to be filled.  It was a roomy bag, with no flaws, and could expand endlessly.

White represents purity, perfection, peace, innocence, dignity, cleanliness, awareness, and new beginnings. You may be experiencing a reawakening or have a fresh outlook on life.

I moved back to your Brow and began having the feeling of an overabundance of mucus there.  Breathing problems or sinus problems.  This would mean stagnation and the need for movement.  Exercise will assist the lymphatic system and that will help move impurities and negative energies on out.  Then you can think more clearly.

At your Heart, I am seeing all white everywhere.  Then a red heart floating in the middle of it.  It reminds me of the Red Cross emblem.

Red is an indication of raw energy, force, vigor, intense passion, aggression, power, courage, impulsiveness and passion. The color red has deep emotional and spiritual connotations. It can also mean you are needing this energy in your life.

I moved to your Solar Plexus and was up on high ground, circling around.

I began shuffling the Tarot deck at your Sacral Chakra and one card fell out.  The IX of Swords.  It speaks of worry and despair, anxiety and depression.  You may be feeling overwhelmed.  I can see that this makes your decision making more difficult for you.  Something that might be easily decided at another time becomes a mountain to climb and you aren’t sure of your footing.  You are dealing with a problematic situation/difficult decision, but your worst fear is unlikely to materialize.  What you are feeling is the aftermath of previous difficult circumstances – classes, work, life.  Don’t lose sleep over this.

I hope you are able to make your choice and know that it will be the right one.  Try meditating on the choice.  Follow through with the decision and see how it feels while you are meditating.  Try both and see what your heart and gut feel like.

Lots of love,
Diana

My friend made the choice to take the more difficult class and I’m happy she is exploring her intuition and using her gut feelings as guides to making choices.  She is extremely happy with her choice.

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So long gone!

By Diana Neff | Published: October 3, 2010

Can’t believe it! What has been going on? For me, it’s been lots of energy work. Lots of running with the kids – theater and swim team. Learning to knit. Can one ever truly say he or she “knows” how to knit? I’ve been sticking to the small projects, learning the basics and now I’m expanding into learning different cast-on’s, bind-off’s, knitting in the round, and have even started reading up on Intarsia and Fair Isle/Stranding. (That’s where a shape or pattern is introduced into the project in a different color.) Oh, did y’all know that? LOL You probably know there’s more than one way to hold the yarn too. I didn’t.

I’ve also been curious about beading, especially making charms to help when working on specific energy imbalances. By curious, I mean I’ve been spending hours wandering the web finding info on what to string the beads on, who has really nifty designs already, what can I expect out of attempting to market them… A couple of years ago, my sister made the most gorgeous book marks from Chakra stones. She used a few embellishments such as Swarovski crystals. Takes time and effort and materials and space and the desire and then clients who might be interested in them.

You know when I am able to do any projects? The kids go to bed at 9pm and I move into the energy sessions which are then done, around midnight. That’s when I’ve been knitting (while I am watching a couple of shows on Hulu). I hit the hay somewhere between 1am and 3am, usually well after 2am. Up at 8am to rest on the couch until about 9:30am when school and running begins. I won’t even go into weekend schedules.

I was working with a client yesterday and found the images being given to me had to do with knitting.  My sister-in-law just gave me a book called, “Zen and the Art of Knitting” and I haven’t gotten to reading it yet, can you imagine?  BUT, I really want to and will shortly.  It came to me that Zen-and-the-art-of means learning about life through the method.  I will present my meandering thoughts on this in a following post.

I am noticing how the pictures and paragraphs above seem haphazard and disjointed, but I’ve decided not to change anything.  Plain old tired and looking for the elusive nap.

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Life and it’s developments

By Diana Neff | Published: August 24, 2010

This is a continued conversation with a young woman who has come up to a point most of us older women have faced.  We didn’t want to miss the right opportunity and we were afraid of being alone down the road.  Most of this fear is due to the background noise we were subjected to all our lives.  I mean the comments about “old maids” and the feeling of inadequacy if no one “wants” us.  We were not raised to be independent and now look to make our lives worthwhile by serving others.  Some people are built that way anyway, I know I am, but society surely has dug a bed for us to lie in too.  I am happy to see that this course is changing and young women are realizing their worth and are enabling themselves as potent and secure free spirits.

Here’s the original post that we opened discussion with.

And here is the latest :

I just feel that I need to feel more confident about my decisions and being comfortable making decisions. Currently after I’ve made up my mind to stay with my bf and go with the flow, someone who I was interested in in the past couple of years re-surfaced ( he has this funny way of coming up every couple of months). Now I feel somewhat confused about my decision about my bf and my heart and my mind are confused again.

And I replied:

Life is full of confusing situations, it’s all for your development.  You’ve just come of age, don’t rush things.  The whole boyfriend, girlfriend thing is a highly inflated subject.  What’s wrong with just having friends?  How can you give yourself completely to someone if you don’t really know who you are yet?  These are my thoughts rambling away.

At this moment, I want to say that life is a smorgasbord.  Sample this and taste that and enjoy the prospects.  You’ll know when the right one shows up.  If you really want to stick with the boyfriend you have, then do it until it doesn’t work anymore.

Isn’t it delightful that you made a choice and then another possibility came along?  Does it mean the first choice you made was wrong?  Does it mean that all your choices have to be set in stone?  You don’t want to be a fickle girl by any means, but allow yourself some freedom, embarrassments, mistakes, and achievements.

You’re okay!  Have you been doing any meditation practice?  I want to encourage you to that.  Some people call it praying, some meditating, some alone time.  It should be a soft and comfortable time where you allow yourself to find what makes you giggle.  Find what makes that thrill come up in your chest and tremble into your throat.  Try some different subjects other than boys.  What do you enjoy doing?

If you do what you enjoy, then there is a good chance that the friends you find there will be compatible with you.

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Energize me

By Diana Neff | Published: August 16, 2010

I’m confused, irritated, bothered, struggling, and anxious.

Now turn all those around.  I’m clear thinking, easy going, in control, strong, and calm.  That’s better.

These are what I truly am after all and that is why it bothers me so when the opposite words seem to apply.  They just aren’t me and feeling that maybe they do apply makes me feel even more yukko.

How many of us believe we are the awful emotions that emerge when we are stewing in our own crock?  My sister once told me that she appreciated being out and around people because they allowed her to be the real her.  I’ve always liked that thought.  The person we are when we are sharing our best with others is who we really want to be, who we are meant to be, and who we really, really are.

The negative attributes are merely the lack of the positive attributes.

Clear thinking – lack of clear thinking (confused)
Easy going – lack of easy going (irritated)
In control – not in control (bothered)
Strong – not strong (struggling)
Calm – not calm (anxious)

I may not have gotten all the opposites just right, but I think you can get my drift.  We are all some form of the positive attribute and function at some degree on the scale of each.  We would like to function at 100 %, of course, at least I would, but it gets just too darn hard to find the energy to do so.  Then we may feel that the lack of the attribute is the true way we are.

If we can find just the right way of filling our energy cup so that we have plenty to be at the top of our game, we will be quite pleased with ourselves.  What is a good way of accomplishing this?  One term that we know and use is prayer.  Prayer seems to have become more associated with a begging or wishing-for mind set, as if it is out of our hands, while others terms are more proactive or action-ary.   I know these terms are becoming more globally known — clearing, protecting, grounding, meditating…

Find your way of filling your energy cup each day, or even multiple times a day if you live in a difficult environment.  The first one I jump on is deep breathing and drawing energy up through my feet into my body and allowing it to flow out of my chest/heart area.  This works very well.  Remember when Mom used to say, “Count to ten?” – Basically the right way to go.  There is another quick fix/fill-up as well.

Emotional Freedom Technique – EFT tapping is a great method.  While you tap on acupressure points, you are opening your energy meridians.  Too, after having done it to the point of habit, you know this tapping to preempt a feeling of calmness, so it acts as your trigger.  If someone else does the tapping for you, you feel loved and energized from this exchange.  EFT is very powerful.

Aspiring to be the best us we can be is not such a struggle if we learn a few little ways of bumping our energy, filling ourselves with love, and allowing greater possibilities of success.

Fotki photo credit: Glamurka

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It’s never written in stone anyway!

By Diana Neff | Published: August 11, 2010

I just found the funniest site with Fortune Telling cartoons.  Click here. I love the one that says, “Your crystal ball has holes in it.”  “When business is bad, I give bowling lessons.”  What a hoot!

The following is a predicament one of my clients finds herself in after having had a future-telling psychic reading done.  She has allowed me to share it here.  I do hope it will serve you well and that it doesn’t hurt anyone’s feelings.  There is always something to be said for moderation in all things.

Here’s what she wrote:

A previous reading I received said that I will walk away from my boyfriend. So now I feel like I can’t get this thought out of my mind.  In my mind I’m thinking if that is the case – what is the point of trying with him now? But in reality I don’t want to walk away, I want to try and see what happens. I’m just having the hardest time letting go of that prediction and enjoying what I have right now and going with the flow.

You have made the right decision.  You are making your choice and now want to protect that choice.  This is exactly why it may not be a great idea to get future readings from psychics.  I think “outlooks of present situations” is a good way to go, but to have someone tell you what is coming can lead to confusion and then you are not able to follow your own intuition and heart.  I only look at the Tarot cards as leads into what I should be thinking about, areas of my life that need my focus.

Many people think knowing the future helps and they search for that information with all their might rather than allowing themselves to “feel” what is right.

Even if you do walk away at some point down the road, you still will have had experiences that you may be needing as part of your life lesson now.  You may meet people, do things, or have thoughts that you have never met, done, or thought before and wouldn’t because you quit before it was time.

I just saw this clip on Youtube.  A bit depressing, but something of the truth.  Even if the future telling isn’t true, can it come true by our expecting it to?


My suggestion is that you get about the business of living your life one moment at a time, planning for the future, and enjoying every breath you take.  Really!  It’s never written in stone!  Let future-telling psychics go, at least for a time.

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Is it really greener on the other side of the fence?

By Diana Neff | Published: August 10, 2010

This is where I want to be.Is it always better in the future?  You know, I remember a while back thinking that 17 year olds are like 7 year olds. They want to have all the privileges of being treated older, but don’t want to give up parental pamperings. 14′s are like 4′s, once again they realize they are not the center of the universe and go about being oppositional to get the attention they deserve. It’s their form of temper tantrum.

I fortunately missed out on both of those tribulations with my biological children. I think it is because we home educated and I talked with them all the time. They trusted me completely. We still face clutter and chores done late, but they know how to cook, sew, do laundry,clean house, mow the lawn, and change the air conditioner filter. There’s far more, but those are the basics, right?

With our adopted children, however, it’s been a long haul to that trust stage. Even though we home educate, they still remember portions of their life in Russia and also see things on television that they think they want. I have problems convincing them that they don’t have to find out the hard way. The twins are watching their almost 15 year old older brother (they are a sibling group of three) as he stumbles along with choices. Fortunately, they don’t want the results he’s getting. I’m hoping he will calm down and see the life benefits of being loved and given strict rules.

Yes, 13′s are like 3′s. “Look, I’m 3, count my fingers!” “Yea! I’m 13. Finally. Now I get to…” Does anyone remember why it was that we couldn’t wait to get older? What is it we get to do? Make our own decisions. Yes, how easy is that? Buy our own things. With what money? Get a job. Are we all doing what we dreamed of?

The twins took a middle school course online. I worked through it with them. Critical Thinking. The course was a repeat of all that I’ve taught them anyway, but it was good to have the reinforcement. The one thing that rang out above all others was the part about living in the moment. All through their lives, most people think about when they will get to the next point. Starting in childhood. I think it comes with wanting what others have. Bigger brother/sister, mother/father, get to do things we don’t get to do.

healing children at playThe biggest thing around here is television. My husband has little self-control when it comes to what he watches when the kids are in the room. On the other hand, I never watched anything I didn’t want my two oldest to see. When they were about 8 and 10, we watched Northern Exposure together; that was the only adult show. I did not watch PG-13 or R rated movies. As they got older, we moved into the PG-13′s and now they watch the R’s. I like to have time with my older boys and will watch a movie with them on occasion. This, of course, makes a to-do with our younger ones. They just can’t wait until they’re 13! Well, I’ve been telling them all along, just because the Motion Picture Association of America thinks it’s okay for 13 year olds to be watching people sleep together and blood pooling under bodies or listening to foul language as if that’s the new way of carrying on a conversation, doesn’t mean I do! Well, not in those words, but pretty close.

We can’t afford cable right now, so there is no regular TV. We do watch some on Hulu, only ones Mommy gives the nod to, and we are paying for Netflix. That’s a pretty good deal when there are four computers and a couple of game systems that can run movies and shows all at the same time. Of course, this is our only entertainment and 10 bucks a month I can live with.

Oops, got carried away there. That’s part of the 55 year old thing. I think it reverts back to the talkative 5′s. LOL.

Can I say I’m enjoying where I am and living in the moment?  I surely know it’s never greener on the other side!

Fotki image credit:  photosues – jumping boy

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Today’s addition to the Q&A’s

By Diana Neff | Published: July 27, 2010

The following question and answer can be applied to all the healing modalities and the myriad of “Reiki’s” that have been developed by individuals.  In my humble opinion, all energy is the same and we can increase it’s viability by agreeing on the use and outcome of it’s use.

‘For where there are two or three gathered together — to my name, there am I in the midst of them.’  Matthew 18:20  Young’s Literal Translation

That isn’t to say we should manipulate the energy into doing exactly what we want if it isn’t for our highest benefit.  I believe in remaining humble, grateful, and open to what is best for me.  If I need money to pay bills or the doctor and to buy food, I need to find out why I don’t have enough and work on applying energy to that area of my life.  That is, “I need help being a good employee,” or, “I need help with my self-confidence while I’m self-employed.”  I need to focus on what I can do and do with my best intentions.

This will bring the abundance we hope for.

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Hello,
Do you give Money Reiki Healings?
Thanks

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Hello,

I give Distance energy sessions that use elements from Reiki as well as other modalities. This is a session where you receive energy from the universe and I am acting as a booster of sorts by allowing additional energy to flow through me to you. This benefits you in whatever way the energy sees is best for you, whatever way your Higher Self/Spirit knows is best for you.

I will not/cannot manipulate the energy into doing anything that is not for your highest good.

If you were to ask for assistance with financial issues, I could focus on sending healing energy to whatever it is that is blocking your ability to support yourself. Then I will let you know if any images come to me that might suggest answers or bring up things you may not be aware of.

Please let me know if I can help.

Love and gratitude,
Diana

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Amazing Grace

By Diana Neff | Published: July 26, 2010

I adore “Amazing Grace” and have used it over the years as a comfort, a release for emotion, as a lullaby for my babies. This and “Rock of Ages” have long been melodies that I depend on when I feel a hum coming on; ever since childhood when my mother would sing them.  She had a very tense life, becoming a mom at eighteen, three kids by 24 and living through tough times for years.  She overcame her trials, including agoraphobia and undiagnosed lupus (long called a hypochondriac) and a lack of education.  She took the GED classes and test when I was in 7th grade and progressed from there on to a Bachelor’s in English Literature (all classes taken while we were in school – never left home alone) and became a high school teacher. These songs got her through as, I am sure, they have many, many of those whose souls are exposed to negative energy.

A client and new friend, thank you Crystal, has sent this video link to me and I was pleasantly surprised that she would think of me in this regard. We have not discussed music before now.

The pentatonic scale is a scale of five tones used in African, Far Eastern, and Native American music.  A thought just flew in…humming sounds, the om’s and hu’s used for meditation, actually massages the thymus and thyroid glands. This is relaxing. I wonder what role the pentatonic scale plays in the notes that we each choose for our healing humming?  There’s a power in the stride between them and a fulfillment in the feel of five notes.

Isn’t it amazing – the grace we receive when it is most needed? Something as simple as a melody raises our spirits and relieves our souls; allowing us to feel love and comfort; bringing us closer to creator God who is truly within us.

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Should we delve into 2012?

By Diana Neff | Published: July 24, 2010

And so, more common questioning from our mass consciousness.  Fear of catastrophe.  Survival instincts.  Awareness of our frailties.   Grasping for structure.  While we want to know the future, we also want to know we can change it.  How is it we demand such concreteness, yet work so hard at knocking it down?  If we knew the world was coming to an end within moments, would we sit down and hug each other, or would we begin a frantic dash at trying to change that outcome?  I don’t know what the correct answer is…there isn’t one.  All is and will be, just as it always has been, and we are constantly hoping to find out how we fit into that picture.

This is a recent conversation with another friend and client; used with permission.

Hello again Diana,

I hope you remember me from a couple of weeks ago. I just want to let you know that the healing energy session that you did for me worked very well. I don’t feel depressed like I did before you did it, but I do still have concerns and worries. I am glad just to be feeling happier though!

There is another reason for my e-mail, I was wondering if I could get your input on something. It’s something that has bothered me for a while and I’m trying to figure out if there is any meaning to it. It’s about a dream that I have, actually 2 dreams that I have over and over and it really scares me. I have a dream that a wall of water is coming towards me and my family, a huge tidal wave, and in my dream I am just standing there looking at this water coming at me. I had this dream last week and this time it scared me more than it ever has before. This time in my dream I looked out my window and saw this tidal wave, about 1,000 feet tall coming towards my house and I was frantically trying to find my kids’ arm floats that they use for swimming and I told my husband that at least the kids might have a chance if we could get their arm floats on. I couldn’t find them so I called all 3 of my kids to me and told them that if I never saw them again, I wanted them to know that I loved them very much and I was crying. My daughter looked at me and said okay and she was crying. I woke up after that and was sweating and scared to death and I couldn’t go back to sleep after that.

The second dream I have is about a meteor hitting the earth or something like that. All I see in the dream is a fireball shooting through that sky.

Both of these dreams that I have scare me to no end, and I am worried that I have these dreams because it’s really going to happen. I have also seen many things on TV about the year 2012 and the world ending in December of 2012.

Can I get your input about this, if you can give me any input. Is there a reason I have these dreams? Do you have any clue as to what may happen in 2012? I’ve heard too that there is just going to be more of a “Spiritual Awakening” in 2012, not the end of the world. There is nothing else that scares me more than thinking about something happening in 2012 and my kids going through some kind of catastrophe, and me having to see the looks on their faces and there won’t be anything I can do. That goes through my head and I hate it.

I just watched the movie “2012″ and now I can’t sleep and it made me think about the dreams I have. Is there anything that you can tell me, about the dreams or the year 2012? Do I have these dreams because it is my fear?

I’m sorry to be asking you this stuff, but I thought you might be able to help me since you helped me before. This has bothered me for a long time, I’ve had these dreams for a long time now and I never knew who to ask about them. Thank you so much, talking to you before brought me comfort!

Sincerely,
Leslie Canby

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Hello Leslie,

Remember the breathing exercises, Leslie!  The more you study about energy work, the better.  You must find your own truth(s).  My truth is that I don’t know what is coming, but I am comfortable knowing that I am energy and that is never going to go away.  I will move on to be where I am supposed to be.  My children are not small any more (I still panic when the thought of losing them comes to mind), so I don’t have the anxieties you are still going through.  I was just like you, though, fearful that I would not be able to keep them from whatever disaster could befall them.

The wall of water and the meteor collision are out of the movies.  You know that.  You need to fill yourself with beauty and love and keep your mind focused on the present.  If any catastrophe were to come, you would do exactly the right thing because you are a caring and loving mother.  You will know what you should do.

There are so many books to read about what comes after this existence.  There are so many people who have been there and come back.  On my website, I recommend Dannion Brinkley and Ian Stevenson, M.D. (reference on Stevenson) for this information.  Very easy to read both of these men.

I also recommend you read Judith Orloff, M.D. for a sensible and comforting look at life and energy.

I think you are just suffering from young mothers’ anxiety.  You don’t feel safe and you translate that to your children not being safe.  They are; you keep them that way every hour of the day.  I can still recall that tight feeling when horrid thoughts and suppositions would come to mind when my children were babies.  Breathe!

How is anyone to know what is coming, it’s always changing.  I imagine looking down on the earth, or the universe, and seeing it morphing into an infinite number of futures because we each have the free will to make choices.  Only the creator can tell the ends of each of those, not us.  We can look at our present and come up with a few scenarios and worry over them, or we can get to work changing out outlook and our vibration and feel the love.

I read recently that the indigenous people of South America think those who believe the world is ending because of the Mayan calendar are absolutely nutso.  Do your reading and make sure to read both sides of the story.  Then meditate on the information and see how you feel about it.    Here is a site I just stumbled on and will read later…you might like to check it out.

Love,
Diana

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Diana,

Thanks again for your comforting words! I have always been the type of person that wants to know things now, this second, I’ve always had a rough time making decisions because I’m afraid to make the wrong ones, and I have had a fear of dying since I was 7 years old. I had my tonsils when I was 7 and my stitches came out and I hemorrhaged and lost a lot of blood. I remember hearing the doctor tell my parents that if they didn’t give me blood I would die from blood loss. After that my parents had a very tough time with me because I was so scared of dying. I didn’t sleep at night, I didn’t want to be in a dark room and I didn’t want to be by myself at any time. I would cry a lot and ask my mom questions about life and why we’re here. The one question I remember asking her was, “Mom, after you die and are buried, how are people 20 years later supposed to know that you ever existed?” I remember she didn’t know what to say. My grandmother started coming over to my house before bedtime and reading a children’s Bible with me and that helped some. I was raised in a family that believed that God loved you wether you went to church or not so I guess we weren’t the most religous family. Anyway, I still find myself asking the same questions that I used to wonder about when I was a kid. It bugs me that I don’t have the answers. When I have a question, I’m not happy unless I get the answer right then.

The dreams I have scare me because I have them often. I have another dream too, one about aliens, and these 3 dreams I have at least once a month. I guess it scares me because I have them so frequently, so I wondering if they were, well, premonitions I guess.

Well, I’ve rambled on enough and the kids are asking for a snack so I guess I better get off of here.  Thanks again for everything and I’ll look into the information that you gave me.

Sincerely,

Leslie Canby

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Leslie,

I think you are asking questions and then the dreams are coming, not the other way around.  I met a little girl once who was the most dear little thing.  She was shy and quiet and her dad had to sit with her every night because she didn’t want to fall asleep.  She thought she wasn’t going to wake up.  It seems there is no comfort for that.  She loved and trusted her father, but she just couldn’t get past the fear.  I lost track of them and now wish that I could know how it has gone for her.

Please do read Dannion Brinkley.  He has died more than once and has worked with Hospice for many years.  He helps people come to grips with dieing and you may find some answers and solace in what he has to say.  I got his books from the library.

It’s thanks to people like you that we have so many answers in our world today.  While the exact questions you are asking may not get answered, other questions will be and you need to know that questioning minds are necessary for our race to carry on.  Close your eyes, what do you feel?  Is it everything or is it nothing, or does it fluctuate between the two?  I think that is the definition of infinity – immeasurably both.

Lots of love,
Diana

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Diana,

I haven’t had much time to do much of anything the last few days, but I did find a website that was created to debunk the rumors of 2012. It made me feel better. the website is www.2012hoax.org/ if you are interested. So i feel better about the whole 2012 thing.

Leslie

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Thanks for the link, Leslie!  I got right into it and was swept away looking at the links tab.  Great stuff.

d

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